I envy the atheist who does not need religion as a crutch. They can find the strength within themselves to persevere, be moral, and justify this world secularly.
I envy the theist who stil has faith in a God that is constantly being attacked, has never been proven and may not even exist. They have integrity in their own beliefs.
I Believe in a God. He is not omnipotent, nor omniscient. He did not create our universe. He is however omnibenevolent, the exemplar of good will. I beleive He is married to Mother Earth, and indeed human existence may be destroyed by Gaia’s survival mechanism. But I am not quite sure of His relevance.